its 2.39 in the morning... still wide awake...the silence n peacefulness i used to like seem so strange n deafening today..the feeling of loneliness knocking on my door....... juz can't concentrate for my wrk.... dunno wats wrong.... mayb i shouldn't be so bothered abt things tat shld have ended long ago.... i had the chance to take back all the pics taken during beyond concert in HK taken in last yr jan... but it also meant tat i have to keep in contact with tat woman... so i decided not to... its easy to add someone in msn but its damn difficult to delete after tat....N nw i rather i hurt ppl than letting them hurt me.... haha selfish or not i dun care.. this kind of feeling is something u have to undergo b4 u can say u understand how i feel...... Within this 1 yr plus... ppl ard me has been saying they noe how i feel.... but do they really noe..... I dun tink so.... but still grateful for all things done for me.....by everyone ard me esp the encouragements frm mum n dad.........
Alrite.... time to stop been so sentimental..... talk abt other things...................... was watching a taiwanese programme abt food....... god damn it makes me damn hungry..... italian cuisine...... i dun really noe much abt italian cuisine but the cheese alone can make me drool........... I'm a cheese lover since young........ Cheese is never a fattening food to me....i love the taste n smell of it.....thou it smells bad to some ppl......n it also reminds me tat i haven been cooking anything lately... esp for the past 7 mths....
Miss the fun n feeling of cooking n trying out new dishes i never try making b4....... maybe picking up how to make italian cuisine is a gd idea... since i can throw lots n lots of cheese into the food....... ahahha........ will try it out some day.......... i hope........................................or get a italian wife is the best way out... but of cos if she can cook.... if not forget it....... i still like Asian gers....... n boys............hahahaha